This post is written to link with Five Minute Friday: write for five minutes on a one-word prompt. The prompt today is “grateful.”
The FMF prompt is appropriate today, because grateful is how I feel.
As I look back over 2020, it’s been a strange year – I’m sure many of you feel the same.
It started with a bang – my word for the year was “vision” and I had a vision for a ministry in my church that began to be worked out in the first months of 2020 in ways beyond anything I could have imagined.
God was at work in unexpected ways, and I felt that I was standing back watching it all happen…
Suddenly everything came screeching to a halt. And over the months since then it has felt like, bit by bit, everything that had been achieved was lost.
The vision remained, but the way forward seemed increasingly difficult. Doubts and questions began to creep in – had it really been from God? And, if so, why had it all worked out like this?
Still no answers, but over the last few weeks something has been stirring.
Hope, renewal of the vision, a sense of urgency to get going again…
I still don’t know how or when it will be possible, but it feels like it’s time to get ready.
The main reason for my gratitude is that in two separate situations, God suddenly showed me this week that in these long months of waiting he has not been inactive at all, but he has been quietly at work behind the scenes. He has been working in people’s hearts and circumstances to prepare the way, and actually all that I thought had been lost has not been lost after all.
So I’m grateful – grateful that God is still working even when we can’t see, grateful that he didn’t give up on the vision, grateful that he can make a way when it seems impossible. I’m grateful that once again I’m standing back and watching him at work, and I’m excited to see what will happen next!
“Even when I don’t see it, you’re working,
Even when I don’t feel it, you’re working.
You are way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness.
My God, that is who you are!”